Pain and Regret

I'm alone, but I guess I earned that
For some things in the past, but you think I deserve that.
Hurtful words, so piercing and hard
Going, gone, playing the lonely card

Turning away, when I try to explain
Left alone, chest heaving in pain
Tears streaming down my soaking cheeks
Held by you, during previous weeks

The time is gone; it's by and by
The separation for you and I
A long time coming, but I wanted forgiveness
Leaving me all alone in absolute darkness

Now is a long time since I ever cried
But through the time, the connection's tied.
And all this time, we've never met
And that's the thing I'll forever regret.

I'm sorry.